I walk up to you, kick you in the shin, see you cry or scream in pain, and then blame you for the pain you feel, what would you think?
The natural reaction for most red-blooded human beings is to apologise. Even if the kicking was done on accident, the immediate response of, again, most red-blooded human beings–and some blue-blooded ones too–is to apologise.
Oh my gosh! I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to!
That’s what most living, breathing human beings would say, or some variant of it.
And if you kicked my shin on purpose, well, then you should automatically be prepared to apologise. Unfortunately, that’s the type the probably doesn’t feel the need or at the least the desire to apologise.
Oh I’m sure they have their reasons. Reasonable or otherwise. But at the end of the day, what kind of person doesn’t apologise, eventually, for hurting someone else?
The answer is a person that is hurting themself.
A heart (or shin if you will) so broken and used to being broken, that it no longer has the sensitivity to know when they are breaking someone else’s. If you have grown numb, then that is a sure sign of brokenness.
There was a time some years ago, I had become so broken myself and didn’t quite realise it. Everything in life had gone askew. And a friend walked over to me at church and said something to the effect of:
Make sure that you don’t become numb to God.
At first I laughed at what she said. Kind of like Sarah did when the [Angel of the] Lord said to her that she would have a child within one year’s time. Obviously what my friend said to me wasn’t along the same lines (and thank God!), but the sarcastic laughter was the same. I laughed because what she said was, well, laughable to me. Me? Numb? To God? I think not. But it wasn’t long before I discovered she was right.
And chances are, if you’re numb to God, then you’ve been numb to people for much longer.
It’s a sad thing when we’re hurt in life. But that sadness is deepened, when we use the sadness as a weapon to feel again.
The Bible does tell us to guard our hearts. However, it does NOT tell, encourage, admonish, or approve of us when we build around our hearts castle strongholds surrounded by moats, guarded by infantry, watchmen, and hidden archers in the towers that shoot at any sign of impending love and life. That is NOT the way.
Neither should we walk around wearing shin guards when we are not on the field expecting to be intentionally or accidentally kicked.
We continue to trust in God and in the good of human beings. We are not undiscerning, unwise, or ignorant of the devices of the enemy and his human puppets, but we do not reject love and inflict pain either.
We choose to love no matter what.
And again I will say: if a heart can be broken, that means it still works.